a letter to guyA Stage Play by iammeridetha small chapter in my life that has made me a little stronger today, i know its personal but i am not ashamed of my past, nor do i regret it.Dear Guy, i told you i loved you, you managed to just simlpy walk away. i sometimes think what would my life be like if you were different. if you didnt choose your drugs over your children. would you have said you loved me too? would we still have movie nights when we spent time together? would we listen to music, cook , laugh? i know it wasnt much and even when i acted like i didnt care... i did. unlike my mom and step dad, no matter how much i pushed them away, they loved me, never left me .... you did. I promised myself i wouldnt be like you.. and just today i said "i dont have the money for gas". i hate you sometimes i miss you sometimes, and though you really werent there, i loved you. i can hardly look in the mirror, because every flaw i see is you. my smile my teeth, my eyes, i hate thinking, i even think like you. i have decided on not having children for fear that i will leave them just like you. i cant even hold a descent relationship, because i compare everyone to you. its been five years since you have signed your rights away, i hold a grudge against you. you have showed me what i feared the most, how it feels to be forgotten. was it really that easy , just to sign the papers and you were no longer a father just a mere sperm donar? how did you feel, relieved, full of freedom, pathetic, sorry, happy? just curious. i dont know why i think of you as often as i dom it islike your in my f*****g head, get out and dissapear, its what your good at!
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5 Reviews Added on February 28, 2008 Last Updated on February 28, 2008 AuthoriammeridethO townAbouti am a youth of 18 obviously female, i enjoy the little things in life that make me smile big smiles. i love music, and playing my violin, but also i love to write and although my ideas to come to mi.. more..Writing
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