Couple days in my mind

today again I've been thinking (if you know me, you realize this is very rare) what is the need of a relationship? I know I want one. Not a physical one but a real relationship. I guess i want someone I can hold on to. Someone that when they're there my problems disappear. But I don't want to have the feeling. I want to know why we had the feeling of being alone. My guess, it's just a way our body tries to force us to breed. The same reason we have lust. Which means Loneliness=Lust. So it's a sin to be alone. It make you fill lustful which is a deadly sin. So a saint would be someone that helps lonely people, right? In witch case today I really needed a saint... But I broke the rule I thought of today. I never felt a felling of lust today. Just a bit lonely.




In my today I have figured out some of the qualities I want in a girl.

- I want a girl that leans to the left when they sit. Since I lean to the right we would lean on each other.

- I want a girl that I can lay down with and look into the stars. Not needing to talk, just looking into the stars making it feel like only me, her, and the stars are the only things that are real.

That are the only two i could think of that really matter. There are other trivial thing that i wold want but those two are more important then the rest.




These are some things i've thought up and i'm writing down so i don't forget
(i don't really need feedback but comment if you want)




Poems~

(title not made) part 1

Standing at the solid door,
Looking for some solid floor,
Wishing i was nevermore,
Standing at this solid door.

(title not made) part 2

Life may not be what i seek,
Maybe i should turn the cheek,
But looking down on this world so bleak,
Life may not be what i seek.

(title not made) part 3

Heaven may be alright,
With the angle songs and virtue's might,
But what was done in the shade of night,
Brings only fire to my sight.

The Lost Bard

On the quest to find my song,
Day by day no matter how long,
Still my will is not as strong,
But i know one day I'll find my song.

Winter Warmth

The winter cold, i can not hold
In silent breathes are arms set fold
But the smile that makes my heart ring
Melts the ice with warmth of spring

Sanctum

It here I find the one I hold
The one I protect from this harsh cold
I can't be here forever since I grow old
but for now I protect you the one I hold

Life

Life we unfold
But not until tomorrow
I can not get a hold
But I still pray, we won't have sorrow

Echo

Waiting for a fair lilith's kiss
Why does my love never shine
I get dragged down to a dark abyss
Where no light will hit the love of mine

Space~

Theory on black holes

I personally think black holes are the action of a implosion in space. with the variables of no air, external gravitational force (besides the pull of planets), or wind disruption makes the implosion more powerful. Since black holes are known for sucking up light it self could be the reason why no one can see it leave only see the point where it was. Also i think that it does not send you to a different universe, it condenses the particle some much they form a super particle (dark matter)