Humans Kill. (Version 02)

If I told you the truth, told you every motive,

You would become scared of me and never see me the same.

If I told you that I am exhausted…

That I am sick and I am tired of this fighting,

Would you leave me?

Would you care that even when I am down to the final straw,

I break it and keep going, even as I sleep?

It’s wearing me out, grinding me into the dirt.

It hurts to tell them my words and promises.

And it hurts to think they care and what us to part!

 

If the ONE promise I spoke to you slips out to their ears,

My worse fear will come alive and we will be denied!

So what, though, if I am refusing every emotion of hopelessness?

And so what if everyone says they’re tired of me and don’t want to listen?

Are you?  Are you tired and unable to listen anymore like them?

Do you want to fight like I am?

Do you even want to join the resistance?

I just won’t talk anymore about life, about the bad.

I’ll keep every joy and sorrow to myself,

Because the good to them is impossible for me to feel.

Only tell those I trust.

 

Now, I sit alone in my room and dream or cry.

I sleep no nights away, and I die inside.

And I am co-dependent, in need of the ones who love me.

I need others to make me feel happy...

And that's unhealthy I know.

And it’s absurd and weak and immature, fine.

But don’t they know?

I said I would never let you go!

 

I said I would fight and now I am determined to never give in!

Not even into the lies they bend.

The truth they snap apart and the sickening feelings come.

I feel so nauseas and I cannot eat again.

But I take care of myself in ways they’re not willing to see.

You know this and you always will.

So let's break a leg, let's go in for the kill!

Let’s be what we want to be and never give up!!

Reviews

[joshua deathdealer]

Nice style and well written. I enjoyed your take here...xx