Night Sky Disbelief.

Reality is painful, and so is love...

I look to the night sky in disbelief.

He loves me?  Or am I just dreaming?

The moon resemble the spark in his eyes,

The stars glistening like my tears,

The darkness beyond like the unknown future.

'I want to explore our future together,' he had said,

'I only want you though.'

I close my eyes, letting the cold arctic air weave through my hair.

I close my eyes, letting a sad smile dance on my quivering lips.

I close my eyes, and cry.

I want to explore out future together, too!

I only want you, too!

If I was dreaming, would I feel the truth behind his words?

Would I feel the sorrow of damage?  The pangs of true love?

I sway as I walk across the cold wet sand,

Numb to all senses of touch for only a moment.

The moon is so high.  I reach for it with my small hand.

I call the stars to be the same ones you see.

I call the moon to be the same one you see.

I cry for you, for the pain I caused.

And I fall to my knees in a begging plea

For the pain and anguish to leave.

Emotion sickening me into a weak state,

I let my voice cry your name.

My dearest being across this ocean.

I wish to hold you close!

My--the man who I cannot deny--wondrous friend

I wish to see smile out of joy and happiness!

The night sky moves on to another sunrise.

I look to the fiery world

And know one day, you will stand beside me,

And look through my eyes...