Significance Is What?

What is the point in living and falling in love?
What is the point in finding happiness and overcoming differences?
I do not understand.
I wish to know why I dare question it all.
Why I long to feel so differently but not dead.
I do not want to think murder of ones self is the only way.
I do not want to think how I've kept myself alive all this time to be killed again and again.
I do not want to regret having fallen in love with you.
I do not want to regret the progress I made, all the help you gave.
I do not wish the ill upon you.
Only myself for loving someone far greater than I.