“It must be OK because everybody else does it”.

When I was a teen

a thought entered my mind

unbidden and a stranger until then.

I wish I’d never had it but I did

It became the benchmark

of my intentions, my thoughts

and all that I said and did.

It got me into trouble 

it caused me anxiety

it produced a guilt

that refused to budge

and yet accumulated.

It brought me riches

yet reduced me to emotional poverty

it embellished me with distress 

which is not an adornment

that man would relish

with distress came tribulation.

Try as I might the power of that thought

could not and would not remove itself

and I was stuck with it for most of my life.

It has now been removed as the operating principle 

by which I now live and live abundantly.

“It must be OK because everybody else does it”.

Reviews

[Onlyme]

Sound like you were addicted to something, not saying. And you got rich quick, but you suffered emotionally and also cause you great stress and anxiety on top. You managed to overcome all. Now doing okay. I liked this a lot. Meaningful, heartfelt and honest and real.