Fighting with the devil inside my fear of death

I'm quiet

It makes me feel safer when I am

It reminds me I cant get hurt if I say something

Not knowing if it was the best or worst thing to say

 

I don’t see myself as beautiful

I never have

That’s for me to deal with nobody else

Its hard convincing myself

 

Im a book worm

Im tired of television

I get inspired to write by reading

It broadens my vocabulary

 

I have a fear of hearing about a death

It somehow comes up in my dreams

They come and kill me in my dreams

 

No need to feel sorry about these negative marks I have told about myself

I see this as only a few bad things

But honestly I see it as the truth

That’s how I've always seen myself

Its something that nobody can really help me with

Its going to take me a long time to accept myself

Reviews

[khalid]

the negative marks are part of almost all people daily life. i dont think there is anyone who doesnt feel the same concerning death..we get bored of television but we keep watching it maybe because we cant find something else. i dont see yourself as a person to be sorry for..you are better than normal..

[Crystal Marie Dreier]

I agree, it will take a long time to accept oneself. But you are never alone, no matter how you feel. Great write hun.

[Abdul Batin Osman Bey]

Lots of people have a bad self image for years, I did too in my teens and early 20s but sooner or later you'll accept yourself. I admire your honesty and self reflection.

[Leslie Philibert]

Like this a lot, but please forgive me when I write as a old grammarian I would have liked more I`m and can`t and It´s ( if you don`t mean the possessive), but I am aware that writing habits change and I`m an old fashioned writer..