Why am I not good enough for you?

I ignore you completely

Your stupid set of rules

No, don't do this

Jami, don't do that

You pretend to ignore me

When I try to tell you I need help

When I'm crying myself to sleep

When I mutter under my breath

I try to ace your tests

To prove to you that I'm good enough

But mom, I'll never be good enough

Not for you at least

I try to tell you that I'm unhappy

I shouldn't even have to tell you

You should just know

What's it called?

Maternal instincts?

What happened to yours?

I try to talk to you

And you blow me off

For your job

Or some stupid dog

Because apperently they're more important than me

There's things I need to say, mom

And someday I hope you'll read this

And you'll feel bad that you didn't listen

I hate your double standards

Your hypocricy

Telling me not to do something

But then doing it for yourself

Or how whenever I get money

You make me spend it immediately

Because God forbid I have a little freedom

You say I have to date the good boy

So I brought home David

Yeah, I fell hard for him

Head over heels even

But he still wasn't good enough

Why do you care so much?

He made me happy mom,

Shouldn't that be enough?

I tried to tell you my goals

And my dreams

You shot me down

You told me it will never happen

To get over it and make something more suitable

A mother is supposed to want her children to be happy

Nope, not you

You want me to be perfect

Well I'm telling you now,

There isn't such a thing as perfect

Reviews

[Glen Yumang Manese]

I can feel the pain throughout the entire narrative...you let everything out in the open...show much in the lines...venting is a good thing to do...even when people are not listening...as for the ordeal with your mom...seems this personal write is for her...and to express the thoughts in real time...and let her know...I see this is an older write...never too late...when you're already 2 years passed...