Didn't You Think?

A poem based on my mentally abusive relationship

Didn’t you think 19 was too young

To make me believe I was the one to love you?

When insecurities plagued my youth and I still didn’t understand the truth about love,

And how it felt so good, like the highest of highs where the sky was only a mile from my eyes.

Didn’t you think 19 was too young

To take my body and the air from my lungs with just one simple, “My God, you are everything I dreamed of.”

Just as quickly as I was hooked to the man you so falsely pretended to be your true colors were presented to me in the form of the harsh words that pierced my heart like a sharp dagger, “You’re getting way too fat to me.”

Don’t you think 19 was too young

For me to worry about where I’d gone wrong when I chose to love you?

When my thoughts shifted from our first date to “How am I going to lose enough weight?”

I finally realized that I had no use for you, with your deceitful lies and your fabricated truths, with your tactless words and your mental abuse.

19 was too young to understand the truth, but 23 is not too old to say, “I’m leaving you.”

Author's Note

This is another poem that I whipped up. It sort of gives you the idea of the mental abuse I went through when I was only 19 years old and dating someone who was 18 years my senior. He led me on for 4 years until this year I finally worked up the courage to say, "Enough is enough."

Reviews

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Yeah we have to face the facer in life I never not one time allow some1s weight stand in my way. I mean I am a some what health nut but some people cant help there weight. Beauty is within the eyes of the beholder always . You did the right thing no1 needs that. Great writing:)

[Surabhi Kaushik]

Great piece of writing. Can certainly feel a lot of pain and anger in those words that you have churned out. Not easy to express I am sure. But you have done a fabulous job!

[Horcrux_Phoenix]

Thank you very much for your review! It was painful to write and I wanted to express that pain when I wrote it. There was definitely some anger too. Again, thank you very much for your review!

[Mifa]

Nice poem. Good one Phoenix.

[Horcrux_Phoenix]

Thank you!