Soft Light

A very personal piece about what i want from "love"

As I grow older and observe those around me, I’ve come to realise something. I’ve been a fool. I never took much stock in “love” but the more I watch my friends and see what power it has to move them as it does, I will admit, I’m curious. So over the past months I’ve been analyzing what I think love would be for me.

I believe love is kind, as it says in the Bible. It does not flaunt, or boast, no matter how much it wishes to. I get this confused quite frequently. My friends will always come to me and say “ Oh man, I just love her so much, we are perfect.” I would get angry, though I’d keep it to myself. But they are not bragging, it’s simply that their hearts are so full, it spills over and they must speak of it lest they burst from sheer happiness.

So, based on this, this is what I want: I want a love that cares never ending. A love that never falters. Love that doesn’t just see the outer shell, but drills down to my very soul to see what I truly am… and accept me.

A love that when I’m with her, “cheat” is a word we only use in video games. Where we can get lost on a date and not even notice. We’d have to much fun to see anything wrong. A love that holds my gaze for hours, just wondering how we were found by this amazing person.

We’d dance for hours, me in a sleek pinstripe suit, she in a stunning ball gown. The envy of all around us, for we love each other so purely, so absolutely.

Lying in the bed of my truck, covered in blankets to ward off the cold. Looking up at the stars, and wishing on them. All night we’d lay in the soft light of the moon, our hands interweaved like a beautiful tapestry connecting us forever.

A love that can only be rivaled by our love for our children. A love that spans an entire lifetime and beyond. That, even should I pass, I would always be with her in spirit. Denying the call of Gabriel’s trumpet, lest I leave her side. I would not ascend until she joined me. We’d walk to the Pearly Gates with soft smiles on our lips, our hands interweaved like a tapestry once more. Bathing in the soft light we would enter, knowing nothing could ever separate us.

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[Marie]

Love likethis is not easy to find. But I hhope you do.