Water

Just a poem

There are places I want to see, with white wind and salted sand.

There are places that beckon to me with warm hands and whispers of protection, that curl around this shattered thing that's my body, and draw me near.

These are places I'll never reach.

Do you know what I am?

I am twenty feet below the splinters of sun as the bounce atop the water you love so much.

The water I loved so much.

Below this glassy surface, I am something heavy against the white sands you grin as you touch.

Cheshire envies your teeth, so bright and sharp and sharks grow green.

I am below this water with my joints creating little dents in this sand.

The current flows and my hair lifts with it, algae twists around my ankles.

You've painted my lips blue and my eyes milky.

Trapped me twenty feet below, where urchins creep and fish don't dare touch me.

I was there when you did this.

The sun glints down, taunting little thing that it is, playing with my surroundings.

It casts ropes down for me, but they stop short of my limbs.

There ropes of chopped pseudo warmth, won't ever touch me.

The sun is watery as it is for me, but now it's a faded grey too.

Below this broken surface is where I lay now.

You put me here when we were alone.

You put me where when the water reflected the moon.

I tasted the salt on your mouth and the slide of your hands on mine.

Like water, you were warm.

You took me and made me weightless like water did.

You took me and you let me flow freely, my words tumbling out casually and brightly, like water did.

But now you are not.

I do not need you, nor do I love you, nor are you my second home, my second skin.

There are no treasures you hide from me, no hidden horrors and beauties.

You do not pull and push me with currents.

Pressed to the sand you still walk along, I am heavy.

Beneath the layers of water, I am nothing.

No longer does my blood stir in my veins like the liquid around me.

No longer does my chest rise, desperate for something that doesn't exist in this new world you put me in.

Here I am chained forevermore.

To stare upward and see nothing.

Once I was your water.

And now I am its.