Who knows? (Quick Question)

Quick question. Can I not hate the guy that caused you so much pain? Can I not slightly hate your sexy side? I know it when you get sexy, but can I not hate it when you do it for him? You have broken, torn, and blackened my heart, but I have always been there for you. ALWAYS, remember?  Well I feel you are forgetting me. I feel that you don't remember all that I have put up with FOR YOU. I know you didn't ask for it, but still. Do you remember all those night that I stayed up with you crying from being heartbroken, or how about when I calmed you down and saved your life? Do you remember that I ran away and was put in JUVIE just because my mother made you cry and told me I couldn't talk to you? I feel that because I have move you have decided to forget all we have had. But when I do talk to you and mention the GIRL who has ALWAYS been there for me, you all of a sudden get jealous as hell and dare to tell me its "Nothing". I have tolerated and tolerated your "love" for all these guys, but now that you go for this a*****e that  has broken your heart. The same a*****e that was nice enough to have you suck his dick, but then kick you out of his truck. I can warn you all I want, and even when he does this again I can be there to tell you I told you so and comfort you, but what good does that do? Will I EVER be done with you and move on? You are my dream girl, and I gave my virginity to you, but who the hell knows if you love me. Not "love" me, but honestly LOVE me.