To never wake up

I am just waiting to never wake up
Dream an endless dream, should I drink that cup
The cup of poison he had the night he dies
The night where he died with his love by his side
Is there really any reason for me to live
When all I ever did was hid hid and hid
I hid all my life so no one would know
But you somehow got me to show
Is that good or bad, I could never decide
Maybe that's the reason why I wanted to die
But I'm gone now and I'll never turn back
Back to those who I only wanted to attack
Oh but the light is gone and the times gone by
As the clock strikes one, I am ready to die
I press the knife to the tip of my tong
And I swear to God that was when the phone rung
"Hello?" I said as softly as can be
"Hi...is everything alright" said the one who still loves me
"No", I say "I am ready to die"
"Quit it baby, just don't cut tonight"
That truly felt as if someone spit in my eye
"Why not?" I say as if a child at play
"Cause this is not going to be your last day"
"Why do you care? You were the one who left!
I know now that I had lost the best!"
"Please baby, don't hurt yourself" said she who started crying
So I slammed down the phone so I don't hear a peep.
I close my eyes to fight through the pain
That was when I felt the knife through my veins.