Final Goodbye

A Poem by Akaila

I have to say this is one of the best i have ever written! ~akaila~

Shouting,crying, this is not the happy ending I expected.

This pain,stinging,burning sensation is depositing itself straight into the middle of my heart.Piercing it and letting the blood flow out.

I'm in a desperate need to mend my soul.
I'm falling apart.Slowly, painfully dying.
Deep beneath lies a broken soul.
Afraid to move foward to that light.
That seems to be getting dimmer and dimmer each day.

Feel if I get to close the dim light would vanish and leave me in complete and utter darkness. In a world that has completly surrounded me and trapt me inside a cave.

My heart drenched in pain.My pillow is drenched in today's tears but what remains is the scent of yesturday's fears.

For the last time I have been deceived.
Now I don't want to try and somehow again fool myself and beleive that life is better on the other side. Now I know the truth that lies behind these brick walls.

It has finally come out and spoken to me and said that once again I ama failure.

Once again I have proven myself weak.
The world is stronger than me. The vision is now clear through my stinging tears that once again I have proven myself weak.
This world you see, it feeds on my weakness.
Feed on my continuous pain.
My body.
My heart.
My soul.
Is to weak to surive this everlasting struggle. So tonight. Is the last night I will ever have to struggle up this neverending hill.
Tonight is my final cry.
Tonight is my last struggle. This is my will be my last final goodbye.

~akaila~