A Poem For Him...

Emotion filled with anger, pain and love.

I once thought i was crazy,
and that all of these strange feelings werent real.
I've been begging for a sign since i first thought we werent real.
I always thought i was lucky for wat i could feel,
but this pushing away is making me tear.
I dont know wat to do or feel.


I've asked for help,
and seeked advice.
Nothing you've said has changed a thing.
Im sitting here wondering should i care?
Im hoping for a sign that shows me we're still real.


All these fake smiles r gone now,
and maybe someday u will see.
What im feeling is stuck on me.
Please dont let it be.
Please dont push.
Let the true feelings run free.
So then i can feel what used to be.


I know we said words,
and the truth finally came out.
But i still feel that there are still things to be said.
Im writing this for you,
maybe you'll see.
Im not crazy just confused.
Maybe we could someday be what we used to be.


Something made of trust that ran free.
Or even someone who was open to me.
Im just looking for what we used to be.