Lost

It was my first day of school
Came to history class and sat next to you
All gaped at my doing so
And some went as far as telling me I made history
due to my curiosity I asked why
And was told that you never allow anyone to sit next to you
But I just ignored them and went on with my day

The next day came when we officially met
Due to my clumsiness
We bumped each other and I felt sparks,felt like we had chemistry together but still ignored it
Cause we all know bad boys never fall in love but instead pick and dump leaving our hearts in pieces beyond repair

Maths lesson came and guess what
We had it together
We were all partnered up to do some exercises
And it was as if luck was never in my favour when we were partnered together

As we spent time together more and more
You held my heart captive more and more
With time passing by and so was my heart's chance of getting hurt
And by the end of the exercise
I was completely mesmerised by not only your looks but also the other side of you

It was like as if we were in another dimension when we were alone
With you being more nice and open to me
But it still hurts me a million times as much due to my feelings for you


A day came when you asked me to meet you at some place
I was soooo happpy knowing you were actually gonna confess your feelings for me
But a girl can dream right?
When I reached there I saw you smiling deeply with sparks in ur eyes ,i was soo happy for a moment till I saw you with a girl hugging her like there is no tomorrow .
Seeming like she was the reason for your smile not me.
With a broken heart I ran out of there miserably with tears caressing my cheeks.

I never went to school the next day or the other day
Wanting to forget you
I Ignored all of your calls
Chased you away whenever you came to speak with me and after some days you agreed to get out of my way and left me with a letter with the last words as
" please read it"
Days passed by but I never got the courage to read your letter
But after getting myself together I gathered myself and opened ur letter,
"Bear, I know how persistent u are and so I know you are
reading my letter some days after I gave you and by that time I will not be in the state to tell you what I have wanted to tell you the day I asked you to meet me, you never did come i don know why,it doesn't matter all I wanted to say was I love you bear ,so much that it hurts leaving you . At first I did not have a problem with leaving but since you came into my life you have made an impact on me that it actually hurts leaving you."
I stopped reading for awhile and asked myself what he meant by leaving .
"I have to stop him from leaving he is my life my everything I love him with all my heart I wont allow him to just leave me I will go and apologise"
was all I told myself and continued with the letter.
"Bear I know you must be wondering what I meant by leaving. Its hard to explain it like this so if you ever read this letter come to the hospital near our school.love you.bye."

"Hospital! What does he mean?OMG!I hope he is ok?He is always visiting people in the hospital, whom is he visiting this time?" I asked myself while rushing to the hospital.

At the sight of the hospital my heart started beating faster. I could actually hear the beat of my heart.
"Ashley, this is it,just go through that door and go talk to him,apologise, "I kept chanting to myself.

I Put all my stupid fears aside and went in looking him
My heart was yearning to see her love after so long despite of our feelings not being mutual.
Searched for him room after room but his angelic face was nowhere to be seen.


I became worried for a second thinking it was all a prank and decided to go home till I saw it.
It made my heart pound faster than before
Sweat was trickling down my face.
I was stuck to the ground, my legs too heavy to move them.
"ICU patients left wing" was what was written on the board.
It was the only place I had not gone in the whole hospital.


I ran to the ICU area and looked for him in each room.
I was at my last room when I saw him in there lying on the bed
His sight broke me
His face full of pain
The boy I knew was not the one who was in there
The one I knew and fell in love with was always lively and smiling when was around

"Hey,"
"You came!I never thought"
"I'll come right, but here I am."
"Come closer in my condition I don't have enough energy to stand."

I started talking to myself again wondering what he meant by that but I quickly put it behind my mind and moved closer to him.


"Bear"
"Yeah"
"I ………I hhhhave cccancer and the doctors said I only got a few days to live . I may even not wake up tomorrow."

"Hahaahaaahahha" I started laughing to myself not believing my ears thinking it was one of his silly jokes, " that's funny but stop it you know I hate it when you do such kinda jokes."I quickly told him.

"Bear,this time am serious no jokes,"he said while tears were getting out of his eyes
"When I found this out I knew I had to tell you the feelings i had for you.I did not want to die without confessing my feelings to you that's why I called you that day . It really broke my heart when you did not come,"
He stopped for awhile and looked at me and wiped off my tears.
"I thought
something had happened to you so I came to your house not once but you never wanted to see me.I knew then you did not feel the same for me . It killed me when days passed without us speaking.
It hurt even more when I endured the pain
all alone.
No one to cry to
No shoulder to cry on
No one to tell me "all will be well" so I decided to write to you that letter.
I wanted to see you before I died
Just a glance would make me die with less pain than before . So thank you for coming."

Tears started coming out of my eyes.
I could actually hear my heart mourning.
"I am so sorry.
If only i was not in hurry to judge you."I told him.
"I came that day but I saw you hugging some girl and I assumed she was the news you wanted to tell me
I got so jealous that I ran out of there to my home and cried myself to sleep.
So foolish I did not answer your calls nor your knocks.
Am so sorry
Forgive me. "

"It's ok, you are here that's enough
All I wanted was to see you
And now that I have I can go peacefully. "

"No!No! Please don't go.dont leave me here alone please
I love you so much."I cried to him

"Bear
Bear it's not a choice
If it was,do you think I would leave you after telling me you love me when
I have been waiting for so long bear, to hear that from you
Please don't cry," he wiped off my tears. "Don't ever blame yourself ok."

From nowhere the machine started making noises indicating his heart's beating was slowing down till it showed a straight line Indicating his heart had stopped beating.

"Noooooo,Noooooo," I started shouting. A nurse came and switched the machine off
It was like as if she was removing one part of my heart and crushing it.


I knew then it was time to say goodbye so I kissed him on the cheek and forehead then ran home crying all the way knowing I had just lost the one thing that cared for me more than himself.The one person who actually loved me.I then realised he was the IT for me and I had just lost it.

Author's Note

my first short story.

Reviews

[Molly5678]

This is great so touching a true tragic love story

[Hessy]

thank youuuuuu! Means a lot .....

[Hessy]

its kind of a poem story................................................................................................................................