You Within Me

The sixth poem from my poem project, "Saudade," titled "You Within Me."

Each footstep leaving a trail of heartache

         My eyes soon adjust past the blur of tears 

                  My gaze eventually finding the place

                           In which only consists of the continuous thought of you

Thus, my being slowly declines 

         With the oncoming aroma once the store’s door becomes ajar

                  Causing me to now stand behind the vast window that’s crystal clear

                           Our last encounter reenacted through my mind

Watching us sit before my eyes

         I still taste the delicious sweetness 

                 Through inhale and consumption

                          As you inclined the soft textured delicacy in between my sickened pale lips

The corners of my mouth curls with the past

         While your eyes stayed connected with mine

                  Taste buds electrified as the soft creme rolled along my tongue, blush inclined 

                            To the degree to match the pink hue our dessert contained

Then you had mentioned something that I at the time could not handle

         And once this occurred

                  Such savory remembrance turned bitter and vile

                           A peaceful wanted memory rewritten 

                                    swallowed leaving an aftertaste of anguish 

My eyes now descending to my chest 

         Enclosed sobs release causing others to stare

                  As I feel the heartbeat that is not mine

                           I wish for once in my life that it should have been me 

                            

However,

         Though unnecessary hatred derives within me towards me.

                   I shall live on.

                                        For you.

                                                          For us.