The Devil and The Lonely Visitor

i wrote this when my girl friend of 3 years left for California. our relationship kinda went downhill and that's what inspired this.

Sitting with my one lonely visitor
sharing the smoke from a burnt out cigarette
breathing in the black air
that slowly inflates my chest
embracing the taste of cancer
as my lungs grow darker
resembling the black empty void of space
kept in the sky
but something i hold close...
too close... to what some people call a heart
the lonely visitor looks into my eyes
he said "I didn't know the devil was such a reasonable guy"
snickering with a common disposition
as she screaming "Lies!!"
but then she disappears again
its been on and off for weeks
she said she loves me
but all shes been is a ghost
a growing contradiction
but i don't blame you
i blame myself for loving you
i blame myself for needing you
i just wish you could see how this is effecting me
or i wish it would effect you the same...
or i think it should
you say you love me so show it
you tell me you miss me well prove it
don't fill this devil with empty promises and lies
the lonely visitor is just a disguise
but i cant shake this feeling
as much as Ive tried
your absence come to no surprise
i love you visitor so stay
and start to say your goodbyes
i don't want to hold you back
but this devil is no good without his selfish pride
he hates that he loves you
he hates that he needs you
but that's only sometimes
when your not around
when your gone without any sort of compromise
cause this devil would be nothing
without his lovely demise
at the hands of this visitor
a constantly missing guest
a partial love for a lifetime
but all this devil can do is wait
for as long as the visitor is gone
until shes back in his life
cause its worth the nights spent alone
the solitary emptiness left in her wake
is worth seeing her
when she decides to show her face
when the devil falls to his knees
pathetically starts to plead
for the visitor to stay
but to no avail
to make up for this misfortune
he starts to cloud his own mind with lies
saying it will get better just give it some time
and so you will me mine... forever
and she stares into the devils eyes
for one last time
as she disappears... again