My depression

A poem about lasting depression

It's not a cloud ...

It's a tear locked inside,

It's a sadness so big,

It's not going.

It's not a fog ...

It's numbish inside,

It's a sickness so bad,

It's not going.

It's not really black ...

It's a block deep inside,

It's so much of a block,

It's not going.

 

It's not thunder ...

It's repressed feelings inside,

It's so deep down inside,

It's not going.

I can still see the sun ...

But can't feel it inside,

Help me open my mind,

It's not going.

Reviews

[barleygirl]

I think there are many different ways to feel it & describe it, but your way is unique. I've never heard it described like this. Not dramatic & bleak, but still oppressive. The repetition of the line "It's not going" reminds me of a long bad bout I had. I was determined to push thru, day by day, walking my dog since exercise helps push out the gloom. But the minute I returned to my house from a walk, I would slide down the wall & land on the floor in a heap, crying, becuz the fix of walking just doesn't last! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Helen]

I had depression many times in darker parts of my life. Medication and alcohol were my go to's (is there an apostrophe there? [fear of being judged]). Then recovery - getting in touch with the Universe and finding my place in the cosmos - and nine years of depression-free growth and a lot of joy in my my new found life in the light. Then it came again when I really didn't expect it and lasted a year or so. I knew it would pass, I knew it was here to tell me something and I knew there was hope. I also was ok when I was doing certain things, but never for long and I found its relentlessness almost unbearable.

Thank you for sharing Margie.

[Anni Pon]

Depression is a horrible and misunderstood thing, but this describes it well. Indeed, it never really goes. I think the last stanza is my favorite.

[Helen]

Maybe some people are more prone to depression than others, but there is definitely remission and even joyful times. Re the last stanza, I can definitely see and feel the sun now even though it is a cloudy day. Thank you very much for reading and commenting

[MJK]

powerful use of repetition here. and love the way you format your work with images. feel this deeply! thanks for sharing.

[Helen]

If there is one thing I am good at, it is feeling! I feel encouraged that you feel by reading my poem and thank you for taking the time to comment,

As I have said elsewhere, I may overdo it with repetition overall as I seem to use it in nearly all my poems, but thank you for saying it is powerful in this poem.

[Helen]

Too much use of the word "feel" in my comment above!

[MJK]

haha repetition is powerful in poems and comments ;)

good at feeling...love that! and feel it hehe