Chapter Twelve- Darin's View

A Chapter by Heartful5160

I entered the emergency room with fear filling my body. All I waswanting to do was to see Jessica and wrap her in my arms. To knowfor sure that she was safe. To know that she was okay. But at themoment I couldn't do that. I got so impatient on waiting to see her,so I brought myself up to the nurse's desk and asked for the roomnumber, " Yes, I need to know what room Jessica Johnson is in."" She is in room 513. Right down the hall, the second door to the laston the left," the nurse said.

" Thank you," I rushed to her room and stepped in to see her eyesclosed shut. But that wasn't the only thing I saw. I saw that punkstanding in there near my fiance' holding her hand, like he belongedwith her. This was my time to take him out. For him to understandone thing. To not mess with my property. I went straight for the sideof his face and took a swing at it. The guy fell to the floor, " Youneed to leave, right now!" I ordered. After he struggled to get upfrom the floor, he left the room. All I was wanting was some pieceand quiet with Jessica and it seemed like I just couldn't get that.

A lady had walked in with a clipboard, like all doctors had. Shedidn't have a real happy face on, so I knew that this wasn't going tobe that good, " Hi, I'm Dr. Colerin and Jessica has been severely hurt in anaccident. It's clearly not her fault. Her brakes weren't working quitewell and an oncoming pickup truck had hit her really good and threwher to the other side of the road. I got all this information from awitness and her boss, Justin. He said that he was on the phone withher, while she was driving and she said that she would have to callhim back, because her brakes weren't working and the rest we gotfrom a witness, like I said. The outcome of her is that she's no longerhere. She didn't survive the accident and I'm sorry," she explainedand left the room. I couldn't believe it. I didn't want to. I really didn't.My knees started to feel weak and I thought I was going to pass out,but instead I just fell to my knees. In tears. In pain. Then I got backup and laid my head on her cold chest. " Why? Why did you have toleave me, Jessica?" I cried out. Tears were flowing down my faceending up being on the blanket that was covering her. All I couldhere was the machine that was trying to keep her alive, that I knewthat they were going to pull the plug on her. My love.

Then, hermother walked in, " What's wrong, Darin?" she asked.

" Can't you tell? She's gone, okay? She's gone."

"How do you know? Huh'?" she sounded like she didn't want tobelieve me, but she knew had to.

" One, look at her. She's pale as can be. Second, the doctor came inhere and told me. You mean the doctor didn't tell you guys?"

" No," her mother replied.

" Well, there. You know now. I'll leave ya'll alone. I'm leaving, after Italk to the doctor."

" Okay," I kissed her on her cold hand and left the room.

I looked aroundfor the doctor and I finally found her. All I was wanting was to knowmore information about what was going to happen when I leave. "Can I help you with something?" the doctor turned around with ashocked face.

" Yes, you just talked to me in the room, and I was wondering if Icould get more information on what's going to be happening withJessica."

" As in her body?"

" Yes ma'am."

" Were going to pull the plug after family leaves and were going totalk to the parents about what they want to do with her body."

" That's it?"

"Is there something you would like to be suggested or...."

" Ma'am you probably know that this is really hard for me right now,and all I want is for her to come back to life and we all know that,that can't happen. But I'm asking for one thing. For her body to betaken care of and respected. Please."

" Sir' we have no intentions of doing harm to her body. We'll takevery good care of her body and her parents will fill you in on what'sgoing to happen with it."

" Thank you, ma'am."

" Once again I'm sorry for your loss."

I walked away from her andexited the hospital without saying my goodbyes to her parents. It was pretty hard to drive with my tears blocking my view of thestreet. I don't think I've ever cried so much in my life. If I could justscream so loud for the great Lord to hear me and answer my prayersI would. But I just feel like screaming out of anger that I just lost myloved one. " Why, Lord, why? Why, right now? I was the one thatwas needing to go before her." Then I just let out the loudest screamand I'm surprised it didn't clash my windows.

I parked my car in the driveway of what would now be a of myone person house that would now be and got out of the car. I slammed the front door and sat myself in the lonely environment ofmy own house. Actually it didn't even feel like it was my houseanymore.

" Darin," I heard a female voice say. I looked up, down,and around to see where it came from. Then from there I recognizedthat beautiful voice. A voice I was yearning for, " Is that you,Jessica?"

" Darin, I'm okay," she explained

." Show yourself, Jessica," I begged, " Just show yourself. For me.Please," she slowly showed her presence and nothing, but tears ofjoy came out of my eyes.. Then, I saw her right in front of me. Shehad on what she left the house in that morning.

" It really is you," Ihesitated, " Can I touch you?" I asked. She walked toward me, " You know what I heard, is that you are theonly one that can see me. You're the only one that can literally touchme. It's like I'm still here. Can you believe that?" she asked me.

" Right now, it's kind of hard to, but I'll try," as, she was touchingme, I could feel him shaking, " Why are you shaking, Darin? Areyou scared of me?" she asked confused.

" No, no. I'm just in a shockright now, that's all. I just can't believe you're here. In front of me.After a car accident. And, and, you're okay," I stuttered. I just wantedto touch her and hold her, " Can I hug you? Please," I wondered.

"You can hug me, yes. You can hug me all you want," then I gently grabbed a hold of her and wrapped her in my arms. It felt good tofeel her cold body against my warm body. But I knew it was coming.She was going to leave. She laid her head on my shoulder and justlaid there, not wanting to leave me, then she lifted her head up tolook at me. She held my face in her hands and she ran her fingersalong my cheekbones and then on the outline of my lips, " I'm notgoing to leave you. Ever. Can't you see, all these bad things that I'mexperiencing, I'm still here? I'm still here. Let's just face it, Darin,you're not going to loose me. Okay?"

" I'm glad,"I took her cold hands and held them in mine. I knew itwas going to happen. The whole disappearing thing, " You're goingto leave me right? In about five minutes or so?" I guessed.

" Yeah, I mean I would think so. Because just think, what would bethe point of me saying I'm dead? I'm dead, so I have to leave you,Darin, but just think, I'm here and I promise you that."

" Good. As long as you're here, I'm good."

" Great. Wanna know what else is good?"

" I don't know, so tell me."

" Is that I can still kiss you."

" Oh' that's perfect," then I reached for a kiss and at that shedisappeared. Like dust.

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