On the Inside

A Story by Hear Me Out

To be me or not to be me

Is it so wrong to love him so much that your world revolves around him and nothing and no one on this earth besides your kids come before him. Is it wrong to want nothing but the best for him that you do all that you can to make him happy? I want him to know I am the one thing that he can rely on because I will be stable, consistent, trusting, honest and truthful. I adjust my level energy and emotions to his tempo. I adjust my life to his lifestyle. In this world of unpredictable Ill be predictable for him so he has peace and security.

I don't want a crowd of friends, I don't want girls nights out, I don't want girls trips. All of those things will distract me from attending to the needs of my lover and distort my thoughts and feelings and have me chasing after a fictitious life that doesn't bring me joy.