Help Me, Without You I Only Continue To Drown

What if in my world, I was not normal, if I was a danger a hazard, they say I hallucinate and are being that of paranoia. They say I am a psycho. That I no longer know what is real, but I do know she. Is. Real. She helps me, though at times she doesn’t believe me and I wouldn’t either, but it’s not good enough for me and I know it is not good enough for her either to know that no matter what I am still hiding something deep inside. She found me in the worst of my stages, and so I need her. My friends and family don’t believe me when I tell them about her, they just say it is all in my head, is she? They tell me that she is just one of my many personalities because of my dissociative identity disorder but I know she is real, and I love her too much to let her go. To many dismay, I know what I have and what I am capable of but it doesn’t mean that she is not real. She even told me herself “I’m real James, as real as the moon in the sky, I am more real than your personalities in your head, I love you and that too is real.”

“Please help me, because sadly I know without you I would only continue to drown in my messed-up mind…” she smiled at him concerned for his well being

“… and you are the only thing that is keeping me sane in this insanity of mine.”

“Okay.” She smiled and put her forehead onto his, he smiled as tears ran down his eyes, “okay.” James sat on his knees as he held himself on the floor whispering repeatedly to himself “okay”. Cathrine remained missing from James life, he knows she is out there somewhere and that she wouldn’t just leave him to drown, she promised. And James is right she wouldn’t.