Letting go has been the hardest thing I have ever tried to do, but I must do it, only now have I realized this.  Without you I feel so empty, but with you there was nothing but pain and bliss.  Am I monster?  It seems I have embodied its' form without even suspecting it; Through my greed.  Am I sorry for what I've done...  I'm not sure, but what has materialized from it has been my suffering and yours, the scope of its' reality is beyond my comprehension.  Though if I were to describe it, I would say I have created my own hell where for eternity i'll suffer my sins. 

My future...  Will be given sanity, by my mistakes and I could only hope for as much as yours.  Where I failed to be the best I could, I also failed to bring the best out of you.  It is only fair that you grow with this and I realize I cannot offer you this. 

Here's to my growth and yours!

Note to Future Hayden:  Look at how much of an a*s you were, you deserved every bit of pain you felt.  I hope this has changed you fundamentally and that you've grown into a better human being.  22-1-14