March/April 2018

I have an internal voice that just wants to scream.

Scream at the top of its f*****g lungs

Life is not f*****g fair

Where is my family?

Why have my loved ones around me died?

Why am I left with the rotting remains of a mother barely f*****g making it?

She's falling apart...and I am so damn empty

I wish someone could just f*****g hear the screams inside me

Screaming, yelling, crying, looking for anyone to help

But instead I dwindle down and become nothing

Nothing to anyone

I'm here, I'm quiet, I'm alone

The anxiety of the day is setting in

Why don't they care?

Why does no one f*****g care that everyone is dead?

Everyone is dead...

It's murdering me from the inside out

Shaking,tears, not being able to breathe

How can I be sober?

How will I escape this?

This pain runs so f*****g deep

I feel like a young girl again and that makes me sad

I'm a women in a 15 year old girls mind

Just wanting to give up

Just wanting to release the pain

Just wishing someone really f*****g cared

I'm not okay

I'm angry

I'm alone