MasksA Poem by Charles Chukwuani
I wear a lot of masks
the first mask comes on five minutes after the bell rings and the teacher takes attendance my head is down facing my desk preparing my mask I know just when to don it wait for the awkward pause after Tim-o-tee Chambers then comes the hesitation the mispronunciation wait for it wait for it the sigh of exasperation as Mr. Not So Well Educated Substitute Teacher says "er, you, are you present?" he knows I'm present of course he's looking right at me they all are "PRESENT!" I'm here even though I'd rather be anywhere else he could pretend I'm human for a quick second and ask me the proper pronounciation or just ask me if I have a nickname like you do for all the white kids like Richard you people call him Dick that isn't an issue for you but my name is? "you", he says hahahahahaha that's the cue the well practiced derisive laughs from my classmates faces contorted into hideous features like our Igbo masks time to put on the mask of nonchalance because if I let them see that I care they will devour me approaching the water fountain I put on the mask of bravery because back home I was scared of public water it made my sister very sick everybody kept saying tie-ford it was one of the first words I looked up in a dictionary 'typhoid' I'm not really thirsty but everyone in high school moves in packs like wolves eat together drink together s**t together maybe there's a wolf that doesn't like hunting and just wants to relax and howl beautifully under the stars while star gazing but he snarls and sharpens his claws anyway because the pack is moving and because in America the water is clean my favorite mask is the one I have to wear when I have to tango the mask of the dancer why? well, I broke a plate so the belt and I put on our dancing shoes and melt into each other my feet are light like Puck's on the cold floor flitting through the steps with experience gathered from many a dance it is a fiery embrace filled with passionate gasps and flushed skin I want to end the dance I want to get away but I always fall like Midori Ito I've watched reruns of her falling many times on that harsh ice and Kristi Yamaguchi takes the gold! I know how that feels to dance on cold floors so magnificently but still fall in my room sometimes I worry that people at school will notice the bruises but then I remember I have nothing to offer them people don't see you unless they need you their eyes pass right through you they can't see your face so they can't see your pain almost as if you were wearing a mask.
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1 Review Added on March 8, 2014 Last Updated on March 8, 2014 AuthorCharles ChukwuaniAbuja, NigeriaAbout21 year old student. Just going through the motions of life I guess. Anime/video game lover. Asian culture enthusiast. more..Writing
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