Jagged Edge

I search for something,

Some light to shed on the misery.

                         The darkness encompasses me,

Constricting around my chest.

Sometimes is it hard to breathe,                              hard to speak,

It consumes and surrounds me,

Drinking in my sanity,

Like the blood in my veins,

                                     I feel it coursing through my body.

A seemingly relentless struggle,

In no scenario do I succeed.

A self-battle, a breakdown of capability to cope.

All I want is to sleep forever,

                                   To be alone.

Just a capsule a day,                         that’s all I need.

Keep me stable, keep my steady

                        Lord knows this isn’t easy.

A cell, a jail,                 I cannot escape.

            Trapped in a boat, slowly sinking.

           I feel my lung fill with darkness.

                        My eyes see only pain and suffering.

No faith,     No hope. There’s nothing left.

 

What’s the point in trying…