Wonderment of a new world

Coming through the window in to a world I fear. Her room is still yet I can’t seem to find in myself to stop looking around. I’m hoping to see something that will make this world seem filmier.  She seemed anxious, wanting, willing I could not find myself in you wanting eyes.

The still wait after she invite me to her bed fearing that touch as if I’m a 12 again. Calming myself while she curls up my arm and she lies on as we barely say a word. She wants my company more than my I can believe. She is still yet trying to look in my eyes wanting some connection.

I shake in fear not knowing if this is right or wrong if I want her or just the moment. I feel horrid yet satisfied. I think she is taking my fear as anticipation which adds to this strange world. I want another yet the one I’m with someone who wants me.  I feel as if I’m in a story, a world not my own to control a place where your mind is not a haven to keep your thoughts.

 Her eyes shimmer and she leans in. I quake with fear as a road is about to be crossed. It’s as if time stopped as I think of what is about to happen. Where will this lead? What does it mean for me? Can I still find something that has been lost with me with her? A girl that has my interest has a look and I am so spilt between one and the other. I love that may and a love that might be. The kiss was long as if it was long in waiting for enjoyment. She held on tight not wanting to let me go.

I still fear her because I care for another but my instinct says this is what I want.

Is it just because it’s here and now or because its granting me a since of companionship?

Oh wo to this world I have fell in to. Wo to this window that is my doorway. What was once a wonder land is now a nightmare with wonderment.

Author's Note

Again sorry if its not grammar officiant.
I had a few friends on facebook like this one a lot.