I Wanna Be A Student

So it’s been three years since I started,
and three years since I stopped.
Technically I should’ve finished by now
but instead I’m only just ready to begin.

Hey, it’s not my fault my brain wasn’t in the mindset of your average eighteen-year-old.
I was just doing what I was told
sticking to my mould, out in the cold
helplessly watching these events unfold.

The world was ready for me but I wasn’t ready for it
so I just popped down the road instead for a bit

Now it’s three years on
and I am glad of where I am and of what I’ve done.
But really, really, honest and true,
I’ve done what I’ve done and
now I want to do what I want to do.

And yes, I’d like to be poor,
and I’d like to live in debt,
and I’d like to live in a box room,
that I’ve just got to let,
and bump into people who I’ve never even met,
and have a multitude of good times I’ll never forget.
   (Except excessive amounts of alcohol will make sure I forget)

But it’ll be the best
I can be pissed all night
I can be hungover while I write
I can balls up my drafts
I can enjoy many laughs
I can sleep through the day
I can say what I want to say
because nobody will know me.

And that’s what really scares me,
and that’s what really thrills me,
and I hope to God it’ll be what fulfils me,
and with any luck it won’t be what kills me
or my chances of making something of myself.

And even if it doesn’t
having a clean slate should be fun.
Sure, I’ll be the old guy, the twenty-one
amongst the eighteens,
but in between all the caffeine and the baked beans
at least I can be free

instead of trapped, not working to the full.
Instead of wrapped up in cotton wool
like I have been for, oh, so long.

Maybe I’m totally wrong,
maybe it’s not me,
maybe it’s not my scene,

but anything’s worth a go if it could be better than this hole.
Better than thinking it all up and writing it all down with this pen,

d****t!
I wanna be a student again!

Author's Note

I know it's not the best. It's the first piece of poetry I've written and I'm naturally reluctant to change it much! I feel like I should just point out (after a couple of comments) that this was written a year before I applied to go back to University (after dropping out a couple of years previously), and updated much more recently since having a Creative Writing audience.

Reviews

[Angela]

Actually, It's more like a journal entry, and I think it is awesome. GO For It! A few years in the scheme of things...nothing. So, be the wise man in the group. It's stupid not to go if you have the chance. Live your life!

[Basil Piazza]

lol

[(Loveless)]

I like it just the way it is and its pretty damn gud ^^ The words u put some it all up perfectly and Its wonderful how you have written it. I like it and how its about someone who isnt at uni im guessing but wants to be or something like that. Anyways keep up the good writing =)

[Gemma Elizabeth]

I agree with most what you've written (being a fellow twenty - sumiit student) I'm guessing this is from the pov of someone who ISN'T at uni .. am I right? In my minds eye, I see this as a performance poetry piece .. am I right??? hehe nice one Jamie XD