fading away

 

Gazing upon those eyes that three years ago gazed back with love

the divide in my heart begins to grow

between what i know is me and where i want to be

and what has been, and what i once hoped would be

and even though i know that those days are three years past

the pain in my heart refuses to fade

 

i avoid the sight of her

lay my head on a cold counter top

slice open my arms and legs

yet the pain does not flow out as freely as the blood

her face haunts my closed eyes

her beauty refuses to fade

 

i go to my friends who support me through this all

and all i see is her face

a face that once washed away all my tears

and now they will not return to wash away my pain

and i must seek out others who will allow my head to rest on their shoulders

yet the tired hopes i hold refuse to fade

 

i search for freedom, a new future that will replace my memories and my past

and even though in my mind i have moved on

there is a piece of my heart that will perhaps always hold on to her memory

and even thought i may never see her again after this week

a sick wave of nostalgia washes over me when i think i will have to let her go

but, in truth, i know i must let her fade

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[RareRed]

It's the letting the other person "fade" that is so hard, but it eventually does come as we move on with our lives...even when we see their faces still. Great write.

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this is an interesting piece. there are alot of "break-up" poems here at the cafe. (and at it's inspirational soul, that's what "shelf" this would go on, sorry there's more to it than that, i know)

but these poems are mostly by women. so i read yours very carefully. i think it stands out as a lament from a relationship survivor who contains (or conceals) any animosity or ill wishes toward the other party.

he's gotten over it, moved on, and on looking back, offers heartfelt advice, in a glass of bittersweet wine.

i really like this.

faith, hope and love, tristan
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