Not that

Something that was on my mind

You know I've had so many days and nights when I cried for you, but the thought that you might not even have done it once breaks my heart more.
Not that we are not together anymore but the thought that you might not even feel my absence breaks my heart more.
Not that you were my only love but the thought that I was just another toy to you breaks my heart more.
Not that I think of you all day everyday but the thought that you might not have had a single moment or rememberance or regret.
The thought that I just loved you way too much and you didnt love me even a little bit breaks my heart more.