I have decided to love again.

I sometimes feel like its just out of sympathy. Its just that you pity me. The reason you wanna be close to me is because you think I am someone who nobody's close to. Maybe its because we became close at first after how I told you about my depression and how I suffered. So it could be out of pity that you decided to call me your best friend. Maybe it was just the thought of no one else calling me best friend that you wanted to do it. Maybe someday you'll just get tired of always pretending to be my best friend. Maybe someday you'll just realize that you werent gonna do these things out of pity anymore. Maybe someday you'll realize that you have been fooling yourself too along with me. Maybe someday you'll just wake up and know that you dont need to check on me anymore. Maybe someday you'll decide that you dont need me to be happy. Maybe someday you'll just say stop missing me cause i dont miss you. Maybe someday you'll just leave me? Whenever that may be I won't be able to move on. Although I restrained myself from getting this attached to someone again but here I am doing it again. If you leave me, forget me, stop missing me could I move on? Could I forget you? Could I survive? Could I live?
I have loved someone again. I will lose myself in the process of loving someone unconditionally again. Cause I have decided to love someone again.

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