90 days

90 days, I asked myself why but i couldn't reply, was it me, was it her, I still cant tell, in 90 days I have lost faith in a lot of things, including myself, i have lost faith in life, does it worth all this struggle and pain, I still can't answer, 90 days and I still think about her, questions rebound in my head, yet "why?" Is the most frequent one, why we broke up? We were happy, Aren't we? But it seems that it was fake, and everything was ment to fade, how could a person let a two-year relation go in 3 days, no second chance, blaming me for everything, yet I was the one who asked forgiveness, a second chance, a talk, i begged, and said I was sorry, but all of that didn't matter, it was a pre-decided choice, how could a person claims that it worth everything, and in less than a month being engaged to someone else, who could buy it? I am alone now with nothing to console me but these words I write, will this ever end? I can remember her in every place we went together, in every song I sent her, the coffee we shared together, its darkness brings a lot of memories, there is no place to go without remembering her, am I hunted? I wished death to be my destiny to end my suffering.......... I am dead from within, can i die twice? An Arrow to the heart and i took it out, but I couldn't stop the bleeding, they say time heals, but 90 days isn't enough to heal the 2 years I lived with her....