Goodbye

I wrote this list yesterday, and I still haven’t got around to doing what needs be, partly because I don’t know how to, partly because I don’t think it's possible, and partly because it’s hard. Well here it is anyway...


Sometimes we need to say goodbye, though it's hard, and it feels easier to keep holding on. It's the daring thing to do, it's the only thing left to do for some people..

goodbye to being scared to let people in..
goodbye to everyone from school
goodbye my friend
goodbye for trying too hard to find who I am
goodbye walls I’ve built up over the years
goodbye to not knowing who I am
goodbye to not living
goodbye pretending to be someone I'm not.
goodbye to laying in bed most of the day and all night trying to make my self vanish
goodbye settling for less than i deserve
goodbye saying sorry for things that aren't my fault
goodbye to fear
goodbye to wanting a different life
goodbye lies
goodbye dad; you weren't a good father
goodbye waiting
goodbye to holding everything back
goodbye being alone
goodbye being shy
goodbye feeling insecure
goodbye to false hope
goodbye to living in the past, the future is tomorrow, and the present holds the key
goodbye yesterday
goodbye to hate
goodbye to all the negativity
goodbye losing my time
goodbye to not being free
goodbye being afraid to be loved
goodbye jealousy
goodbye feeling sorry for myself
goodbye being a pushover
goodbye being afraid to love for fear of loss
goodbye being a coward
goodbye regrets
goodbye unhappiness
goodbye unsuited friends
goodbye keeping my mouth shut
goodbye sensitivity
goodbye anxious
goodbye old me
goodbye not embracing the real me
goodbye doubting people
goodbye to spending time with people who make me feel dead
goodbye waiting to become the person i want to become
goodbye never letting go
goodbye being scared of the unknown
goodbye to half of my family; i’m better off without you
goodbye to never taking risks
goodbye self-destruction
goodbye to making plans and then cancelling them
goodbye delaying
goodbye college
goodbye doubting people
goodbye feeling like I should always be doing something other than what I'm doing right now
goodbye to not saying how much my brother meant to me and us all,
and to not having to guts to go around there as much as I used to
because I was afraid that it would make it hurt so much more when he was gone
I would take the pain a million over if I could go back.
goodbye brother; I love you - forever in our hearts
goodbye to new start after new start after new start…