Our First Kiss

Something I wrote about the love of my life.

How small must our world have been

For me to wander in unseen,

Dressed in black and wearing a face

I hadn’t taken off in days

 

�"And I like thinking it was an accident

Because I liked knowing life has no sense

Because it explained away all of the pain

And blamed life instead of who I became;

But then I met you and I knew in response

That someone wanted me to be happy for once�"                   

 

And have you come in and have your first impression

Come from my scaring everyone with dejection;

But you still wanted to know me just in case

I was more than just my face.

 

I knew you were beautiful; I didn’t know what that meant

And when you said hi, I didn’t know what to expect

Until my mind started drifting away

And you could have left but you decided to stay

 

I was sitting in my room all by myself�"

It was all I knew; I couldn’t ask for anything else�"

When you made me realize how happy I could be

When I got that text saying you wanted to talk to me

And the moment loneliness was something I couldn’t stand

Was the moment I’d never feel lonely again�"

 

And I knew that you loved me, I just didn’t know

That it was in that way that I wanted you to,

But looking back at all the signs,

It feels right that we gave it a try.

 

I guess you had already done so much

That asking for more was more than enough

And I guess at the time, I was scared of being too happy

Until that one late night when you told me you love me.

 

And I know that it took us a couple of tries,

But it took some time for me to rationalize

How your laugh and mine seemed to harmonize

And how my favourite colour became the colour of your eyes.

After all that, the least I could do

Was find the courage to say “I love you too”.

 

I didn’t realize how much I held back

Until you made it okay to shed all the black,

And be free, my love reflected in your eyes

So no matter how long I looked, there was still more to find.

It feels like the first I've smiled was because of your love

 And you told me you love me for the smile that I have.

So which came first�"my smile or your love?

Or is it more complex than what I’m thinking of?

It doesn’t matter, because of you, I know now

That happiness isn’t about why, but how.

 

Every step I had taken from so far away,

Had brought me closer into your embrace

And now every step that I see myself take

Is through your garden to the rest of our days.

 

Our first kiss�"that perfect moment when

I was scared and worried and confused but then

Another touch from your fingers and the smile in your eyes

Would never let me forget the first time your lips touched mine

And everything in the world suddenly disappeared

But you stayed clear in front of me.

 

That’s what I want forever to be.

Because my whole world is beautiful when you’re with me.

And nothing I’ll ever say could be more true

Because I see my forever whenever I kiss you.