Beautiful...laid to rest

Cold Hard Truth

I was beautiful

I have been told over and over

I use, was, not with caution

with love

I have changed my looks

for peace

I never knew why men wanted 

front hugs

now I hug to the side

friendships a joke

I am better inside then out

but nobody wanted to look in

every girlfriend turned on me

when their mate was about

every man hit on me

even when his mate was about

life should be easy...beautiful

but not if your me

I want you to know me

from the inside out

not outside in

I put on some weight

I didn't cut my hair

I never look up

anymore

because I didn't know certain things

you may read this

and think I am patting my own back

but I am not

these are the truths that come with the territory 

and it is not all it is chalked up to be

no friends

panting men

bosses that don't stop

I own businesses 

small ones in a mans world

I had a therapy counselor once

she asked me out to dinner

I died

that was the breaking straw

I do not care about the hair

but the weight was killing me

time has taken it's toll

and I caress it with care

I stayed home from my prom

to let my girlfriend shine

I do not want wind beneath my wings

a piece of peace would be nice

beauty when mishandled can be dangerous

beauty when naive can be deadly

Reviews

[Rita L. Sev]

Holly, this is such an important poem, full of raw truth. Outward appearances, good or bad, get far to much attention in our society, and we miss so much of the real beauty you speak of here. These lines are especially powerful to me:
a piece of peace would be nice
beauty when mishandled can be dangerous
beauty when naive can be deadly

Keep writing, Holly, and we will see your beauty in every word that flows from your pen!

[Holly Mason]

thank you teach...so much...believe it or not it was hard to write

[Rita L. Sev]

The harsh truths are always hardest to write. That's how you know that they NEED to be written.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

I know many think that the beautiful people have it easy, but in reality they have in rough in many ways like what you stated here.

[Holly Mason]

thank you fine sir

[NITHIN PURPLE]

beautiful...........

[Holly Mason]

thank you for reading truly

[NITHIN PURPLE]

welcome..........

[jacob erin-cilberto]

'beauty when naive can be deadly" yes, true and great line.

i love this poem...and it doesn't come off in the least as egotistical...it is truth..

people need to be loved from the inside out, not the other way.

[Holly Mason]

I appreciate the non-ego comment....I was wondering truly
thank you fine sir from the inside-out*)

[Zahra]

this is such a beautifully crafted poem. Very nice.

[Holly Mason]

I thank you much for your kind words

[quinfinn]

i have always thought that a woman's true beauty is inside...with her heart, her mind. too many people only judge by appearances and see only the superficial attributes of an individual. too bad that beauty can't be universal and all encompassing. what a wonderful world that would be. this is a monumental write, poignant and full of subtle truth. i applaud your honesty and candor. well done!

[Holly Mason]

I thank you for your applause truly do and poignant happens to be my favorite word
thank you much fine sir

[quinfinn]

you're welcome!

[therisa]

Of all your poems, Holly, this one hits home, the hardest for me. For I feel like, you're describing parts of my life, to a "t". Sigh.

[Holly Mason]

to a "t"...for you lovely lady and a thank you as well

[therisa]

Your welcome. Am having one of my mood swings days.

[DL Shackleford]

I feel the pain and sadness evoked by your description of an unfortunate reality. Your work bought my considerations to a couple of things. Internal beauty will always shine through facades for those who truly see, and no one should have to lose themselves for the benefit of others insecurities.

[Holly Mason]

thank you for your kind words truly

[Jack...]

You know what Holly, I find you a beautiful person without ever seeing you. I will happily take a sideways hug from you anyday because I am proud to call you my friend.