Holly...nothing we can do

a wondering moment of heavenly light

I am ill this is my life

a nodule in my lung

I cannot dissect 

it is in the wrong position

perdition a poison 

of sinful words

I begged for this

how absolutely absurd

drowning in a sea 

that I created

my soul is now soullessly jaded

my girls ,my breath, my very life

what will they do

on mommy's last night

I am scared, I breath, I hold it all in

it is pouring now relieving my sin

I cannot digest the thoughts all around

a harp will play my eternal background

I was created to be left in the sand

I wish I would have never begged

to have leave this land

my prayers have been answered

but my girls will walk alone

I ask you my friends

how do I atone

God please take me

I asked on awful days

but I didn't mean it

I was selfish in my ways

they came to me

the doctors and nurses...true

Sorry Holly there is nothing we can do

Author's Note

I am not going to unpublish this...but i wish i wouldn't have shared
this is my peaceful place ...
I thank all for their kind thoughts
I now close my eyes to this and re-open them in my peaceful place

Reviews

[Frieda P]

I don't know what to say after reading this dear friend, it sent a chill up my spine....I'm sure there are no appropriate words. I don't pray but I will light candles for you and send healing vibes your way. x

[Distant horizons]

This has such beauty and love in sadness Holly. It leaves me thinking of all the times I have been less than bothered with days, wasting what little time we get allocated, in persuit of trivialities,long since orgotten.
To be in that fearful place, where the immediacy of it all must explode thoughts for self, but more of others left.
I was the one who had to speak the last line of your words to my dad. His pain was not for himself.

[poetry-kiddo alienbaba]

http://www.runes-for-health-wealth-love-now.com/Rune-Healing.html

:)

[s y e]

Wow girl, this was so heartbreaking, so emtional hun xo

[Tate Morgan]

I just stumbled on this Holly I can only say this makes me weep for you

[therisa]

How
Do I say
Things will better
When the opposite
Is most likely
True.

Having myself
Watch my dad's
Slow decline
From this mortal
Coil.

Please
Do not blame yourself
For those awful days
When life was Hell
For you.

Having myself
Been there
Wishing death
To happen.

I will be
Your shoulder
To cry upon
My brave
Holly.

[Holly Mason]

thank you so my sweet friend...a moment of sharing for me

[therisa]

Wish there was more that I could do, to help you, Holly.

[Jack...]

Holly, this is so very sad and my heart is breaking.

[Holly Mason]

with these thoughts I say to you...chase your dreams always

[Ency Bearis]

a poignant revelation you had scribed, and poetized, a heart-rending thoughts, my prayers.

[Holly Mason]

thank you so truly

[A. H. Pinley]

I can hear your heart in these words and my heart is breaking. I'm praying for you Holly. Never give up on hope my friend. God still works miracles. Thank you for sharing your heart with us.

[Holly Mason]

thank you for listening

[Carissa Marie]

:( This is just sad. Probably what my mom is feeling right now.

[Holly Mason]

I am truly sorry that she has to feel this way...it is not a good feeling to leave ones children
read moreI am truly sorry that she has to feel this way...it is not a good feeling to leave ones children
keep safe hold her close you will be in my thoughts
thank you for sharing

[Carissa Marie]

Thank you. And you will be in mine as well. :)