Have you met him?

I know of his name

and where about he lived

but having never met him

I have only a wish to give

My fathers name

as it was told to me

was-Gary Hammond Mayo

now gone to eternity

by the time I had the guts

deaths day had already passed

but I will always wonder

how long can longing last

I have been told I have his eyes

but no picture for presentation

I have been told I was his daughter

but his family was the main allocation

I do not know if this is true

I have been lied to so before

but wanting to know my tree

will keep me looking forevermore 

He once sent me a check

but would not put my name

going through a divorce

was the point to blame

it was the only time

that we had ever talked

a check made out to cash

was not what I had sought

Mayo ring a bell

check was not to small

but I tore it into pieces

and through it to the wind

standing with my eyes closed

it rained down on me

I remember the feeling

that I had as this took place

it was the only time 

my father

had ever touched my face

so if there is an ending

as this is long for me

with a check made out to cash

I will be broke for eternity

Author's Note

Thank you for listening

Reviews

[Frieda P]

OMG Holly what a tearjerker this one is. Such sadness and longing on this page. Extremely emotional write from you...you've written this angst beautifully.

'it was the only time
my father
had ever touched my face
so if there is an ending
as this is long for me
with a check made out to cash
I will be broke for eternity'

Bittersweet. x

[Holly Mason]

Thank you spunky poet these are the components that make up me
exciting isn't it?haahahah

[Frieda P]

Unfortunately, these are kind of things that make us stronger....perhaps not exciting but true grit. My pleasure always.

[Jennifer]

Holly I loved this poem. It is not what I expected ....... But I'm very glad I did. I read it while sitting with my friend who just lost her daddy last year. And it meant something to sit and listen to your words together. So thank you xx it's sad but shows strength.

[Holly Mason]

Thank you what a image you just shared that means a lot thank you again

[Marc Marlon Villaflor]

Hearbreaking, dramatic piece. It is moving and can draw us into the reality of this piece. I wish the character will get her wishes someday to be with his father.

[Holly Mason]

She will but when that time comes she will be with her Poppy first and foremost*)
thank you so truly

[redflutterby]

Absolutely heartbreaking!! I knew my father but he wasnt a part of my life for most of my years... its terrible to long for what you will never have. Thank you for sharing this with us...stunning!!!

[Holly Mason]

thank you so for sharing something personal...lovely truly

[Carolann Dowsett]

So full of pain and longing and bitter despair. My heart goes out to you. This is wonderfully written

[Holly Mason]

Thank you so for your understanding truly

[Carolann Dowsett]

You're very welcome.

[Eagle Cruagh]

That poem, although very well done, is terribly sad.
D****t. Why people must avoid living ? Your father
apparently avoided you, his life. It just infuriates me and
it interferes with all that i understand about life. We have
to be here for people. Take my hand.
----- Eagle

[therisa]

Your welcome, Holly. How I wish, I could take your pain away and replace it, with loving memories of your dad. Sadly, I can't. Will you accept my shoulder, should you need it, to cry upon? Thank you, for sharing this very personal poem, with us, Holly.

[Holly Mason]

These are the facts of my life and I am not afraid to share them*)
thank you for reading my friend

[therisa]

Your welcome. I hate to see people, suffer, if I can offer help to them.

[EileenMarie]

I am adopted..... I met my birth mom but not my birth dad..... I drove by his house once...... your poem reminded me he won't always be there......

Great job!

[Holly Mason]

Exactly, thank you for reading much!

[Jack...]

This is so sad Holly. It seems the thoughts of "what if" may be around for a very long time. It seems in this day and age, knowing who your father is/was is not as important as it once was, which is sad as well. I hope that someday you find the answers you seek. Nicely written and offered.

[Holly Mason]

I may or may not find my answers but it doesn't hurt to ask*)
there is a whole family there..I know he has had other children my other halves but I will most likely not meet them...but it doesn't hurt to ask
thank you for listening much*)

[Jack...]

I do know about that, I think you might someday if you want to. It might be fun to know them and then again it might be a nightmare, one nevers knows in this sort of thing...