Homeless Home

Looking back I see a space

A room an eternity filled with hate

unwanted child lost and alone

bringing the feeling of a homeless home

Safety nets, do not surround

a symphony of pain resounds

a guiding hand, a quiet spirit

patiently waiting the child hears it

coming up, gasping for air

an unwanted upbringing leaving unfair

no hope, no peace just quietly sit

ask for nothing ,make sure you fit

in a corner starring around my room

be perfect ,a star, to suspend the doom

I was not a blessing, unto them I cry

answer one question then why did you try

an unwanted grandchild brought up in this home

quenching the thirst for a family unknown

as I grew I knew I was a burden 

then she said so of this I was certain

a homeless home with no loving arms

a roller coaster ride with no alarms

I often wonder why not let me be adopted

but the shame of community coldly stopped it

homeless home an eternity affair

for even now I cater to this care

Reviews

[therisa]

Sigh.

Even
When wanted
A Homeless Home
Exist.

To
Be trapped
With no legal out
Except age.

Such
Is the fate
Of some.

Hoping by writing this, Holly, you have excised some of your ghosts from the past. Thank you, for sharing this.

[Holly Mason]

why in the heck did you think I was so happy today*)

[therisa]

I understand, Holly. The house that I grew up was never fully a home to me. Too many painful memories.

[Ahmad Cox]

Even though it is filled with sadness I know that a lot of people can feel your pain and relate to your poem as well. Thank you for writing such an emotional and personal poem. I could truly feel every line of this poem.

[Holly Mason]

thank you for your words...feeling a piece written from my soul is a lovely gift from you to me

[Ahmad Cox]

Yeah poetry has a wonderful and beautiful way of conveying some one's true heart and feeling and I appreciate you sharing that gift with us as well and I always appreciate your positive comments on my poems as well

[Frieda P]

Ouch, this one hurts. Such sadness and angst in this one Holly..I felt it lifting off the page.

[Holly Mason]

I feel it lifting off the page-what a lovely line-I feel like I am reviewing your review*)thank you for reading

[Frieda P]

There are certain reads that really get to me, get under my skin, and I swear they do lift off the page, ha...that made me smile though. My pleasure, always a heartfelt read from you...

[Dream Weaver]

So sadly profound. I can feel the rejection in every word
from beginning to end. Well done!

[Holly Mason]

thank you for feeling these words-rejection in every word...well said truly

[Dream Weaver]

You're quite welcome, I must say "rejection" is a hard pill for anyone to swallow especially a child who did not ask to be brought into this world and yet has to live with the painful memories of it.

[Holly Mason]

like jesus in a manager with a virgin mother and a father not his own-that is what I thought of through out my childhood many will have and continue in a life they do not understand that is when you learn to truly appreciate the little things in life*)thank you so again

[Dream Weaver]

True. Why let something that was out of your hands spoil a good life you could make for yourself with or without the the persons who brought you into this world. My thoughts would be to them...your loss my gain.. :)

[Distant horizons]

No child should ever hear they are a burden, ever. That is too sad for me to even contemplate, although it must be true for so many.

[Holly Mason]

thank you for reading
contemplation out of touch-then I have generated the feelings that I wanted to-thank you so

[jacob erin-cilberto]

this is cold...abandoned by the real parents, brought up in a cold environment by people who didn't want this child...that is so sad...but happens way too often.

like the poem says..if you didn't want me, then why did you try?

[Holly Mason]

thank you for reading truly