What I Really Wanna Say Is...

Gotsta get somethings off my chest...

F**K YOU!...

Whoo that felt good

I promise I wont use that language anymore but it had to be understood

I realize that life is what you make it

There are seasons that season you, so the good and the bad, you have to take it

I get that, I am well aware

Life would be boring if it was all good, my portrait would be bare

But that doesn't mean that I have to hold my frustrations in

Like I've been doing so much so that I don't know where to begin

...So I wont begin

I just wanted to get that off my chest so I don't have to hold it in

But I will say this...

I wish the best to those Christian hypocrites 

Who say one thing and then do another

Opposites attract so I get how you love yourself, and look down on others

I will continue to pray for those who talk behind my back

Even if its my own family sucking me dry 'til my skin is pale and eyes are black

Forget about all the things I did for them

For which in a pool of regrets I now swim

Good riddance the vow renewal ceremony that the groom CLEARY doesn't want

Why waist my energy on that last minute planning for them, celebrate at a restaurant

Au revoir to my best friend who has broken so many promises

Ciao to the man who excites me to the core but has to many misses

I wish you were the one

But you got so many girls, I wouldn't be enough, I'm only one

And to the suspect who claims, the love is undoubtedly unique

I say... chew your words, swallow them, vomit, eat it and think before you speak

Then grow some balls

Your like a Kardashian the way you crave the publicity from them all

If you knew me, you'd know I'm to private for that

I rather not be the topic of conversation, you want to be the main fact

And to the people who call me mean... SUCK IT

I am a nice person, but when you take advantage of me, that's what you get 

So maybe you need to evaluate yourself 

Because every day i take time to look into myself

And its not me, its you

Sorry to tell you the truth

And to my audience I apologize because I wasn't honest

I said I wasn't going to go there but I couldn't hold my promise

I feel better tho so thanks for your attention

And for those who can relate... thanks for your comprehension 

Love. 

Author's Note

Please excuse my language, but I have been holding back.