The Letting

The Letting

A Story by Paul Michelle

''If I have ventured wrongly, very well, life then helps me with its penalty. 
But if I haven't ventured at all, who helps me then?" 
~Kierkegaard

Dinner was steamed summer vegetables
with brown rice, flatbread and 
wine from an unlabeled bottle. 

We sat on the floor 
on a Balinese handwoven rug
with pillows and herbs 

Without no electricity
a pot belly stove and candles
provided all the light we needed

After we ate, we talked
We finished the wine and
a hookah was taken down from its place 

A shoe box of fine keefer 
A tin of home made bitter chocolates and 
strawberries from the garden 

The richness of it all filled us up 
Its decadence made us sleepy and warm
He was a gracious and perfect host 

It may have been the comforts or
maybe my foolish youth but
when my friends were all asleep, I told him everything

I told him how it how it had begun
The flickering lights and
slamming doors that went on for weeks 

I told him bout the filthy roadside toilet 
and the junkie I'd left there to die 
in strangers' piss and filth

I told him about the vagrant and 
about how St Christopher had come to me in the night
when i could not sleep for days

I told him about the young witch 
who'd told me what I should do and
how his advice had worked.... for awhile 

I told him everything 
in desperation, like a fool but 
I had no choice. I didn't what else to do. 

"It's the reason I left the city.
it's why I'm on the road. 
I don't know what else to do, 
or even where I'm going"

He listened quietly and
when I finished he said 
"You're safe here inside my home 
inside these walls and inside our coven." 

He told me he couldn't intervene or
tell me what to do 
He was sorry, he said, for whatever I was into.
 
He said that we should go to sleep. 
That in the morning I'd meet his friends. 
It's the solstice, he said. We are planning a feast. 
I'd be honored if you and your friends would stay and
attend.

I waited until he'd fallen asleep then
I woke my friends.  We need to go, now
We quietly gathered our things and
went out to the van

Driving along the dirt road
through the dense redwoods
toward the highway

God rays from the moon
shone and flickered through
the high branches like sunlight

Jill and Amy and Jeff were silent
I asked Jill if she wanted me to drive
No, she said.  I'm fine

None of them ever asked
why we'd left like that
in the middle of the night.

Jeff and Amy and I
slept in the back while Jill 
drove into the dawn



 

© 2019 Paul Michelle


Author's Note

Paul Michelle
A prosaic recollection of an evening I spent with a few of my friends, in a coven we stumbled upon while driving south from Mt. Angel.

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