failure to comply

There's a moment where you gaze out of the window, and everyone on the other side drifts slowly out of sight. but the big picture remains unclear.

All the wires have been stripped

, and the light just refuses to turn on.

 Its almost as if the electrons have given up,

 and the catastrophic meltdown has begun. 

I never chose to be a part,

 of this well oiled and highly productive machine. 

It seems as if all the other components

 have been synchronized to fall in line with the machine.

 I've bled sparks, tripped breakers, 

and have dragged myself through

 the pits of the circuit board to do my part.

 I don't belong here. 

I sit patiently

 waiting to be replaced, 

day in and day out

 this machine becomes stronger,

 much stronger. 

I on the other hand

 am being drained of what little spark i have left. 

Why was i thrown into this machine? 

i don't fit into this equation, 

but the solder remains and so do i. 

I've given up the fight, but now what?

 if i can no longer conduct then what is my use? 

My lack of motivation drags down those ahead of me.

 Doubt strikes over and over

 and my value drops lower and lower

but i am the one

 with my hand on the kill switch.

 

My only fear is that if that light finally turns on,

 will i be able to tell myself from the others?

 Because in the darkness

 i cannot find myself. 

I've found peace in purgatory. 

The problem still awaits me. I've chosen to give up, my sparks have died.

Author's Note

ignore grammar, ignore structure, just understand

Reviews

[Gaurav]

It is a very profound thought, resulting from an experience of years or life-births. Who knows? This machine , as always, does not care for its tools. Tools add on to the production and never are named individually. But, a single tool is an important tool, without which this machine cease to exist. Profound thought. Keep it up.

[Nammarl]

wow!!just wow.. "A 3D poem".. its the only way I can describe it
just wow

[Aero]

Thats a new one. thank you for reading!

[Jenna Kay]

A haunting piece. I can imagine this person so clearly in my mind, like they themselves are just another machine to be turned on or off. Lovely piece of losing touch with yourself and becoming swallowed by the crowd. (just as we had been talking about :))

[Aero]

If the shoe fits right? :)

[hdc]

Nice piece, it has a nice flow and speaks to something real. I've tried writing poems with deeper meanings like this, but always get lost in the humor of it all. really enjoyed reading this one. well done.

[Aero]

Thank you i appreciate it. Please, use the humor to your advantage, there is humor in failure, there is humor to everything. Maynard James Keenan is my inspiration to write and hes hilarious, but you uses his comical side to bring out his deep side. sarcasm hits hard my friend. Thanks again

[Willard Wells]

Never give in to the voice of negativity. They will pass and the voices of truth and reason will rain true. The words expressed here show great worth and value with talent shown here that you posses. So stay the course and stay focused and look back at this again in 50 years or so. Well done.

[Jyoti_Ablaze]

A haunting write of loosing self identity...
A very well crafted piece, I must say.
In today's world, competition kills more than any other form of crime does.
Rating it 80/100. :)