Unreal RemembranceA Story by GreenEyedGalSometimes what you remember isn't necessarily what happened.In a blurry haze, I could hear voices,
people speaking in and out. I could hear a few words, echoed and distant.
Trying harder though, I managed to hear a sentence come out clearly. “Don’t worry Miss, just relax. This is a routine procedure.” And everything went black. Ugh, why do alarm clocks exist? No
really, why are they a thing? And don’t come to me with nonsense like, oh you
have to wake up early, you have to be more productive, blah blah blah. Why do
we need to wake up at 7 AM, rather than the much more reasonable time of 9, or
10, or 11, or maybe even noon. Oh yeah… school… You know what, I’ll just come out and
say it: school freakin’ sucks. Like mondo suckage. They just cram you into a
building all day, force-feeding you information until your brain explodes into mush,
and once it’s sufficiently mushed enough, they have you take tests to see if
any bits of brain matter still work. Okay, I might be exaggerating, but you
definitely know what I said is partially true. School is just 90% suckage. The
rest of the 10% is a mixed bag. It depends on what you make of it. It’s your
social life, of course. And it can be the worst thing you’ll ever experience in
your life, or the best. Luckily for me, I was, well, lucky.
High school was pretty okay to me. I already met a few girls I clicked with.
People I can consider my best friends in the world. I know whatever happens,
I’ll always have Mary, Stacy, and, of course, Chloe watching my back. And on my
way to school, I was joined by Chloe as I usually do. We’re the only ones in our
group living close enough to the school that we can just walk there, or in our
case ride our bikes. But for some reason, today, I found her walking. So, I
pulled up right beside her and started walking with her. “Heya Chlo.” I greeted her. “Oh, hey Maxy.” She replied looking at
me, but then looking down at the ground again immediately afterwards. And that was our greetings. After that
was awkward, awkward silence. So seeing as she’s looking a bit a bit glum, I
tried to coax more out of her. “So... umm… how are you today?” Frick,
who says things like that? Couldn’t I have said it in a more casual way? “I’m fine.” She answered frankly. Okay, I guess she doesn’t want to talk
about it. But asking again won’t hurt right? Probably? “Really? Are you sure, nothing’s
bothering you?” I said in the sweetest, kindest voice I can muster (which is
hard for me, but anything for Chlo). And then suddenly she gets mad, which
I admit, may be mostly my fault. Okay definitely my fault. “Ugh, can you just leave me alone
right now?” She said as she stormed off ahead of me. I couldn’t follow her. She seemed like
she needed the space, so I let her. So I just slowly made my way to school. School went mostly as it always did.
Lessons upon lessons, tests upon tests. Not once letting up. I met with Mary
and Stacy as I always did. But Chloe was nowhere to be found. When I saw her
here and there, she always disappears before I can come close. I knew she was
having trouble with something, and I wanted to help. But if she wants to be alone
right now, she has the right to. It hurts that I can’t do anything to help, but
I’ll be here when she needs me. I know that, and I’m sure she knows that as
well. So, I just tried my best to act as if
nothing was wrong. Mary and Stacy, ever the gossips, were curious about Chloe,
but I just made a quick excuse to steer the conversation away from her, and
they quickly moved on to who’s with who this week. I tried to do some tests,
which, thankfully enough, I still barely passed. And all in all, it went okay. Then when I was about to go home, I
saw a note in my locker. It read: “Maxy. Meet me after school. I’ll be
by the old tree in the courtyard. Chloe.” I rushed over there as fast as I
could, and there she was, Chloe sitting on the mangled roots of the old tree. I approached her cautiously, “Heya
Chlo.” She looked at me with red, teary eyes.
“Oh, hey Maxy.” “So… uh… you doing okay?” I asked
awkwardly as I sat down beside her. “If crying here under a stupid, old
tree is the definition of okay, then yes.” She sniped lightheartedly. “Okay, you got me there. So what’s
wrong Chlo? Is this about school?” “God, I wish,” she laughingly replied,
“I could handle a few failed grades.” “Then is it a relationship or something? A crush?” She looked away as she replied, “You
could say that.” “Did a boy you like reject you again?” “Not even close,” she smiled wide
enough that you could forget she was crying just before. But she loses her
smile just as quickly, “Can I say something… kinda weird?” “Of course, Chloe. I mean look at me,
I’m plenty weird enough.” “True, true. But you have to promise me
that you won’t treat me any different, okay?” “I wouldn’t even dream of it.” “Okay then, I’ll just say it
outright,” she takes a deep breath, “I think I like girls.” “That’s a revelation then.” “So you’re okay with it?” She asked
sheepishly. Not gonna lie, this is the first time I heard her like this. “Of course I am. Like, what would
change between us if you like girls?” “We would have to break up. I’m sorry
Max, but, I don’t think I like you… that way,
anymore.” “Break up? What do you mean by break
up?” I asked, confused. Did she mean not be best friends anymore? Why would her
liking girls mean we can’t be friends? “I mean, we can’t be a couple anymore.
I like girls now… and you’re… well… a guy.” A guy, what did she mean by a guy?
I’ve been a girl my whole life… Have I? Wait… I can’t remember anything… What?
Why can’t I remember my own past? I’m a girl, right? RIGHT?! And a splitting headache hits me that
causes me to double over in pain. “Max, are you alright?” I could hear
Chloe say in between the throbbing in my brain. “Just… just… leave me alone” I managed
to say. And everything went black. I slowly came to. I was in a hospital
bed. I could hear the faint beeping of the heart monitor. I felt weak and
tired. I could barely move my fingers, let alone the rest of my body. Suddenly
a nurse came up to me to check on me. “Where the hell am I?” I managed to
squeak out despite my weariness. The nurse answered comfortingly, “You’re
in recovery Miss Laurens. You had a bad reaction to the Memotech, so we had to
get you stable.” “Memotech?” “Just give it a few minutes, hun.
Momentary amnesia is one of the side-effects of the use of Memotech. But you’ll
get your memories back in just a bit.” And just as she said so, another
splitting headache hit me. I remembered why I was here. I wanted to change my memories.
I wanted to feel as if I’ve always been… me. And I knew that there could be
some bad side-effects. But I couldn’t live with the discrepancy anymore. “Ah, well it seems you got them back,”
the nurse said as chipper as ever, “headaches are another side-effect, sorry. I
guess I’ll just have to inform the doctor that you’re awake then. Just try to
rest up, m’kay?” “Sure.” “Oh, and I know I’m not supposed to do
this, but I couldn’t help but pry into your memories a bit when we were
stabilizing you. And I just have to ask. Who’s Chloe?” “She was my girlfriend during high
school. She left when she figured out she was a lesbian. Ironic that she dated
me, eh?” “Hmm, yes. I can see how it can be
ironic.” And so she left me alone, lying on my
hospital bed. © 2022 GreenEyedGalAuthor's Note
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Added on February 27, 2022 Last Updated on February 27, 2022 Tags: lesbian, memories, transgender, sci-fi, heartbreak AuthorGreenEyedGalDasmarinas, Cavite, PhilippinesAboutJust another gal in the world trying to write and see if she's good enough. more..Writing
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