Need to Feel Normal

... sometimes that's all that is important

Need to Feel Normal

 

I need to feel normal

At peace with my own self

But solace alludes me

This comfort I seek.

 

All around me time flies

No after thought given

The world twirling on its axis

While I flounder far flung.

 

I wish things were different

I long for understanding

But others just want me

To change and adapt.

 

If they lived in my shoes

They’d know I’d give anything

Not to be like this

Alone with my fears.

 

I didn’t ask to feel this way

It really isn’t fair

I don’t want to be a victim

I’m stronger than that.

 

Every time that it happens

It’s me who feels awkward

Feelings I cannot control

And fears I can’t allay.

 

Stop trying to fix me

Just listen to my story

I need acceptance, understanding

I already recognize the problem

 

I’m doing the best that I can

It might not seem so

But consider the battle

Trauma’s only the scar.

 

Healing takes a long time

It might never happen

But ownership’s not a question

Harsh reality, a blind eye.

 

I need to cut me some slack

Stop beating myself up

Emotions are human

Pain drips from my wounds.

 

In a perfect world

Reflection would heal

Closure would be a real door

Put the past far behind me.

 

But that’s not going to happen

It is only a pipe dream

So onward I struggle

Explaining as I go…

 

October 25, 2013

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Reviews

[Gloria]

Everyone has a need to feel normal but we just have to be strong and carry on . this is a strong and honest piece and it conveys the reality of the mind in a very unique way .