I'm Over Here . . .

If I don't hear from them I begin to look for reasons - What have I done? Why are they angry with me? I know, I know...an 'abused' reaction ...

I’m Over Here

 

I’m feeling bewildered,

Confused and confounded

Not certain how long I can manage

To control my inner need

I feel like I’m being tested

To discover my breaking point

It appears that I have only one

Sometime after 4:30 A.M.

Otherwise I pretend

That everything is fine

While my inner child crumbles and falters

Taking deep breaths

To try to control my cloying neediness

To have the world revolve around me

I should make that my mantra

I know this instinctively

However, I still feel persecuted

Alone and abandoned

Why can’t I not care

That their choice is to ignore me

While other life issues have their attention

Instead I wave frantically

Hiding behind the last blooms

Of St. Martin’s summer

As it transitions to winter

With spring lost forever,

Summer’s latent memories

I’m still over here

Awaiting the outcome

Remembering who I have become

Before my body dissolves

And my spirit runs away. . .

 

September 4, 2013

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Reviews

[Gray Witch]

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[Gray Witch]

[Glen Yumang Manese]

At times in life we look for the reasons and yet contemplate them...like your verse does here...like the starting lines:

I’m feeling bewildered,
Confused and confounded

and then you go about the lines explaining...as you reach this end point:

I’m still over here
Awaiting the outcome
Remembering who I have become
Before my body dissolves
And my spirit runs away. . .

you really look into yourself...and the verse tells much of that in the read...