Un-cleared Mind Fields

They cannot lead you down a path they have never walked....They just cannot understand...

Un-cleared Mind Fields

 

Break open her head,

Is it normal inside?

Just what is the dread?

The fears will subside

They cannot understand . . .

 

A cleansing is needed

True feelings must be rendered

To bring the demons to the light

Illuming the path on which we reside

They non potest intelligere . . .

 

Bring on the tears

They encourage from the sidelines

Rejoice in her exposed fears.

Opening up. No more secrets.

They cannot understand . . .

 

Striving for that eureka moment

when all becomes clear

My Munch SCREAM face speaks volumes

As I cringe and disassociate

They non potest intelligere . . .

 

 . . .<Shaking my head> . . .

 

Who benefits from such a healing path?

Does anyone really care?

Franticly I dig deeply to find inner strength.

While they look to the future all rosy and bright

They cannot understand . . .

 

I cannot allow them to dig any deeper

Not when I know that desertion will follow

I am not strong enough to deal with this alone

But I’m trying, please believe me, really trying

They non potest intelligere . . .

 

I’m a soul damaged long ago surely,

Praying I can heal with some well sought support

But good intentions are not enough

They must walk in my shoes to get to the known

They cannot understand . . .

 

So I ask you to accept me as I am and be with me

Please don’t judge me when I’ seem to react different

You can’t just open Pandora’s box then be gone

That I will not survive, no way and no how

They non potest intelligere . . .

 

To leave me again feeling abandoned

But now, with so much more baggage on board

To do so is unfeeling and yes a form of abuse

Recognized or not, it is that with which I need deal

They cannot understand . . .

 

It may be wrong to be feeling this way

Needy and ashamed when turned away

I had lay hidden behind walls for my safety

Surprise but this is the me you inadvertently uncovered

They non potest intelligere . . .

 

I am thankful you show you believe in me

Your willingness to walk my path is so priceless a gift

But I must protect my disturbed inner spirit

Damaged though it is, it’s all I have left

They cannot understand . . .

 

Feeling re-victimized albeit unknowingly

Doesn’t hurt less so I am encountering

So please understand when I need to cry out

For your attention, compassion and yes understanding

As the path winds its way through the mind fields uncleared…

 

August 27, 2013

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Reviews

[Renée]

Powerful Write Grey Witch...and so true..no we can not fully understand a path we have never walked..we can only support and pray that is enough as our loved ones go though hell to whatever side they can cling to .. as I said Powerful and eyeopening poem..thank you