Finding the Way . . .

. . . a journey of sorts

Finding the Way . . .

 

Thanks for the support

Love and tears in consolation.

Family, friends and those

Others who are out there

Without whom, I would have had

To face this alone.

 

But now, is the time

That I need to put distance,

Between you and the journey

I have chosen to be on.

It is just me and my subconscious

Who need to travel this back road.

 

Filling in gaps with tears and regrets,

Together we argue and wrestle

The truths as uncovered.

Armed with purviews long hidden

Can I just allow access

Let others determine a meaning unclear?

 

My conscience is fashioning,

Our long held ambiguities,

Buried for eons,

They appear as unbidden

Colouring the dawn,

With the dusks’ latent overtures.

 

Slowly and surely,

They make garden pathways.

But hidden are explosive memories,

And other such traumas,

Long forgotten and enshrouded

They set traps in the dark.

 

A light at the end beckons,

But is as yet, not understood.

So please keep your distance

The closeness is suffocating.

My mind plays its tricks

Making help seem to hurt.

 

Afraid of abandonment,

But not wanting to seem needy,

This balancing act is both

Perilous and frightening.

Maybe now is the time,

For others to take over.

 

Those of faith offering strength,

I need their solace and care

Through the toxic darkness,

Exposing, my past to the light.

On this journey, it’s their support,

That will help to restore….

 

July 7, 2013

 

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