First Loves . . .

First loves remain with us always no matter whether they were right or wrong ...

First Loves . . .

 

 

First loves’ passion is daunting

All encompassing, addicting

One never forgets,

Or wants to, for sure…

 

Giddy and desperate,

Utterly enamoured,

Another lexicon is needed,

To define this new life…

 

With him, suddenly in it . . .

All at once a world dripping,

With amazing intensity

Emotions never felt heretofore…

 

A pure version of strong feelings

Fueled by adrenaline and dopamine

Lead to an ecstasy, overwhelming

Uncertain and scared…

 

That, later on in life,

For mental health’s sake,

Experience teaches

The naive to dilute… 

Idolizing truly,

Mesmerized sincerely,

Is it any wonder the spell,

Its power prevails?

 

Long years have since past,

But memories persist

This is the bar,

By which others are still judged…

 

So I treat memories with reverence,

For they show to me my true life

Without them inside me,

A very different ME would have grown…

 

Whether that is good or bad

Is immaterial, orthogonal,

Extraneous to the matters

We consider today…

 

All I know is that I cannot

Change what’s inside me

Try as I might,

The past remains as it was …

 

Maybe all I need to do is

Grieve for the young me

Tie up the loose threads,

Lay to rest that hurt soul…

 

 

 

July 6, 2013

 

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Reviews

[melissa]

very sweet awesome work!!!

[Just Kim]

WOW deep and emotional,
loved the last stanza, Awesome!