Still Seeking

Looking for closure -- still

 

~ STILL SEEKING ~

 

 

Something is missing,

I can feel it is so.

Wandering through life

with this pocket of woe.

 

My life spent seeking

Looking for some answers.

My heart is longing

Old dreams be like cancers.

 

Youth was gratified

Nothing more need be said

Love must be the goal

What else caused this dread?

 

Search ever after

If that only was true.

Lost love so empty

With payment comes review.

 

Focusing forthwith

For what am I pining?

Surely not for the man

Time was for the longing.

 

Memories fading

Needs a spark to ignite,

Is it youth that I’m seeking

Revenge or respite?

 

Maybe all that I need

To be sure to myself,

Is to view my true life

Like a book on a shelf

 

Mind filled with fear

I can no longer hide.

Summon the courage

To relinquish my pride.

 

Love fosters safety

I had always hoped.

Buried memories they differ

They were how I once coped.

 

Now chosen have I

To bare hidden secrets.

Here’s hoping for closure

Their promising abets.

 

I still wish to see him

As wounded as I am

But giving him access

Would just end in more harm

 

My fragile psyche

Can handle no more

So closing this book

He’ll be left far from shore.

 

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Reviews

[Claire Twinn]

To let go or try and squeeze new life out of a dying relationship? You describe the mixed emotions perfectly.

[Gray Witch]

Thanks Claire . . . not many understood this one.........