The Abandoned

A Poem by Skylines

To my father

Your memory now fades
As the years pass by
Still something inside me dies
As your laughter resides

I never knew you as a father
But rather,
As a haunting voice on the other line
One that was misplaced in time

For years I played along,
As the daughter you’d never leave alone
But as time ticked by
Disappointment opened my eyes

Twice a year was all that you gave me
Was it all I was worth?
Not your time, nor your words
Still, you left me torn

Even when I needed you the most
Those dark days
when I went unheard
All I wanted was to hear you say
Those, Three. Damn. Little. Words.

I spent hours alone
Pondering over reasons unknown
Desperately wanting to know, “why?”
That was the moment that you died

I’ll never admit
You played a part in how I turned out
But between you and me,
you’re pretty much the key

You’ve left me spiteful
And empty
I can’t cry, and I can’t trust
The only emotion I feel is disgust-
towards myself

Each day I pray
That one day you’ll cave
And someday I hope my memory causes you regret
Just as yours to me is a threat

One thing is for sure, I will never forgive you.
Mark my words.