Cigarette Smoke

To be or not to be

To want or not to want

It's stronger than me 

and yet

I'm stronger than that,

what makes us weak

Like that,

what made us enemies

Stronger than that, 

that's coming out of my throat and my lungs

Not cigarette smoke

But your hands that seep into my insides 

and smother the fire you've kindled in me

I'm not strong, I'm stronger

Weak and weaker

And every look you give me burns me 

and it breaks out,

not just strength,

but a weakness that made me stronger

And that weakness weakens me

till I feel the strength that stabilizes me

Where is that smoke blowing from?

Not cigarette smoke,

but from my charred lungs,

from the eternal scream I'm suffocating

And you fuel it

Like a flame that only burns when I close my eyes

And your eyes, wide open

they watch me burn

And I burn with you, 

With your longing for me

Longing for us

You can smell the smoke from us,

'Cause we're burning

Me and you,

into the ground

like little sparks we burn, and burn, and burn, and burn, and burn

I'm burning 

We're burning 

We're suffocating

Author's Note

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